Bittersweet.

It's hard to believe my time here is up.  As I am sitting here, in my room, my home, reality hits: This is my last night here. My last night with my family in a country I have learned to call home. My last time to soak up this wonderful culture. If you had told me in July, while I was still in America, that I would love it so much here I didn't want to leave, I would of laughed and told you  "Yeah right!" I remember people saying countless times that when it was time to leave, I wouldn't want to. They are so right. 

There are so many memories that are just running through my mind. With family and friends.

 I have made so many great friends here! A huge group of ladies that just know how to have fun, and Thank you so much for inviting me in, even though I was at least 4 years younger! I had so much fun, and y'all taught me a lot! I am especially thankful for one of the friends I made. My experience would of definitely not of been the same without her! She is like my older sister, and great friend! We did a whole lot together and had some crazy adventures along the way. Thank you! :) Also, all the other people I hung out with, or interacted with, Each one of y'all touched my heart!  I am going to miss all of you so much! Thank you for all the love and encouragement! :) 

Dad, Mom, Tucker and Major. Wow. What a journey! First off, let me apologize. I am so sorry for all the complaining I ever did before coming here and after we arrived! This place is beautiful. It's home. Not because we have a house, but because my family lives here. Dad, It took me long to realize it but you were right. I was being selfish and not looking at what was important. I am sorry for that! I am so blessed! Dad, Mom Thank you for everything. I love you very much! I am going to miss you SOOO much! Tucker and Major. Where do I begin? Y'all are my life! I love you SOOO much! I am going to miss your handsome faces and jokes so much! I am so blessed to have such wonderful brothers! I can not even begin to describe how sad I am to leave all of you! This is so much harder than I thought it would be. I love you. 

So many things going through my mind right now. I can't wait to see the rest of my family! Meet my new little cousins, see my best friends. Begin my path for HIS plan ,for my future! I can't wait to see what HE has planned for me. HE has shown me SO many things during my time here! Things about myself I had been avoiding, or things about HIS people. I have seen HIS creation in a new light, and I must say it's pretty amazing! I have learned that the only way I will get through my trials is : Listen and Trust! Two very big struggles I have. But through HIS strength and grace I am learning. 

And now, I truly mean this as Starfield sings :

To the desperate eyes and reaching hands
To the suffering and the lean
To the ones the world has cast aside
Where you want me I will be

I will go, I will go
I will go, send me
To the world, To the lost
To the poor and hungry
Take everything I am
I'm clay within your hands
I will go, I will go, send me

Let me not be blind with privilege
Give me eyes to see the pain
Let the blessing You've poured out on me
Not be spent on me in vain
Let this life be used for change

I wanna live for you
Go where you lead me
I wanna follow you

Send me!

This was by far the absolute best 5 1/2 months of my life!!!! Thank you everyone who made it wonderful.

And Thank you Dad, Mom, Tucker and Major. For everything. I love you! I will miss you more than you know!

Isaiah 6:8

"Then I heard a voice saying: "Whom shall I send? Who will go for me?" Then I replied: "Here am I. Send ME!"