Lately, I have felt very weak, and overwhelmed. Lots of sleepless nights. Tons of emotions and feelings controlling my mind, and then letting them control the way I view life. I feel alone. Sad. Lost on where to go, and where is home.
I have been reading Psalms, and It is such an encouragement. David is calling out to Him, for understanding or giving praise to the Most High. I think to myself, In all the he went through: the sins, the power, the weakest times of his life and he still gave HIM glory. Then I ask myself, Why is it that I am not doing the same?
As I was driving the other day to work and the song Times came on and it's one of my favorites. It talks about how His love is over and underneath. In absolutely every circumstance you have in life His love never fails. As I pulled in I just broke. I just starting crying and crying out to Him for strength. Then I had realized that I had not read my psalms for the day so I just pulled it up on my phone and read it there:
Psalm 61:2-4
From the end of the earth I call to You when my heart is faint;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
3 For You have been a refuge for me,4
A tower of strength against the enemy.
Let me dwell in Your tent forever;
Let me take refuge in the shelter of Your wings.
It was like He was reaching down and holding me right there, and saying you need to trust me and let me take control. I love you Ellie and I will never let you go.
Can I tell you how freeing it is to just let it go? I felt His love and strength surround me like none other.
Life is hard, and It sucks sometimes. But how great is it that we have a Father who will hold our hand every step of the way!
